I love you and that's all I really know..
Hey there! Its been a time I havent posted anythin to this page..
I just got back from Bandung with my boy n bro+his girl,. I was having a really GREAT time there even its not what we have planned at the first though,. we were just driving around to get some... well, mostly foods,heheh! Surabi near STP Bandung is super delicious!! As well as Batagor kingsley at Jalan Veteran is THE BEST i've ever tasted! but dont mention the price...its quite expensive for a batagor only~
Anyway, enough with the culinary hunting., My intention to write tis is a ....... how to say it? Its regarding the title I wrote above,.I always think like tat everytime I mention abt my past,.did I do the rite thing...was it really the best way..
I just dont feel rite for him to not telling what I worry abt sometimes..
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Here again todae on 17 May 2011,I wanna continue writing it up since my bro has gone to sleep =p yeah, back to the topic, I finally talked to Danil tat day..the 2nd day when we were goin to Bandung,.uhmm..I wasnt planning to mention it till suddenly I felt tat I shud talk to him abt this b4 it's too late,..
Well yeah, most common reaction I got were like, "How come?", "When was tat happened?", "Who..?" or usually they just keep in silence with a great shock in their mind / face. I had prepared for the worst,..even I wud noe the answer,..I still hope he wud accept me for just the way I am.... But apparently, my intuition was the rite one to describe the situation..haha *singing intuition song by CNBlue*
We talked all nite till finally fall asleep, the next hours I woke up, It was like a dream...All the things I said, all the things I confessed seems like a dream to me..I did admit I dunno wat to react afterwards..I dunno if I still have the rite to call him as my boyfriend,.even I dunno if it still rite to hold his hand...
He did hold my hand first.. so I tot we r doin fine...rite..?
Our last journey to Batagor Kingsley quite ... fine...what I can tell anymore? He was busy with the driver to find the way while I was busy lost in thought...The same question always pop up in my mind.. "Did I do the rite thing..?"
To be quick, we broke up on 1st/2nd of May I forgot..He said he cant accept it for now while actually it shud be just fine if he really loves me..He wanted to confirm his feeling towards me, does he really love me/not..And,again,.what can I do? What can I say..? All I can do is to let him go...rite? There's no point on asking him to stay when all he wanted to do is to leave, rite?
*sigh*
I once heard my colleague at Shangri-La yesterday. They were only joking actually,. It went like this ;
chandra : "Katie, the main thing for the relationship is trust as well as honest rite," then he grinned to Vita who was only giggled behind us, doing her things.
Vita : "Bah! People nowadays tend to choose dishonest girl! We have to be smart! Girl who is honest always left behind!" *JLEB* then she laughed.
It was only a joke but it all how my relationship went when it comes to my past..
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Dear God,
Please strengthen me everytime I down,.Please just tell me that your way much better than mine, and this is one of it..Please make me believe again that there's still one person in this world who still considers me amazing for just the way I am..
